I hate that things turn sinister so quickly

Bababababababa plays and I’m transported to the walls with dried bouquets hanging down and a loud AC 

How do things turn sour so rapidly all of it scares me to think about 

My next two months will be real spooky 

Frig

im addicted to love

and kissing

 

 

day alone in Chinatown <3 beautiful
 

If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.

 

 

 

 

Triste lloran mis cansados párpados

Mis pupilas ya no encuentran lágrimas

 i love to have fake crushes in the spring

spinning around my room and in my head with lack of

information….

imagining me and someone i made up in my head with the body and characteristics of a poet i met whom i know nothing about

listening to their favorite songs and day dreaming 

 Su piel es dura como el árbol que azota el viento

Y tiene

El corazón de poeta

De niño grande, de hombre niño

Capaz de amar con delirio

stuck like glueeee

get out of here please

can you see me? can you hear me and see me? can you see me and hear me? ☺️

https://music.apple.com/us/playlist/its-okay/pl.u-yZyVyN3CdRo99jg

october 

 march

 

 

this letter got delivered to my address by accident,

its so beautiful.. I’m going to send it back to the writer, with a note that it was the wrong address….

 this letter is too beautiful to not be read by the person it’s meant for

wow

 i said just but there’s nothing just about this feeling

this feeling is everything

I will not start buying cigs I will not start buying cigs

he left me a gift taped to my usual table at the library he says

my corner table was empty but the library was filled with people today

i went and searched for it but someone took the gift

and also for some strange reason the carpet under the table smelled of strong piss

was this a sign? I couldn’t bear it

I WALKED OUT

IT WAS POURING RAIN

I WANTED TO CRY BUT THE SKY DID IT BEFORE I COULD

WHY IS IT ALWAYS RAINING WHEN MY HEART GETS RIPPED OUT MY CHEST

I hope the gift does them good

I’m right handed

This hand kept getting hurt yesterday, pinky acrylic nail keeps bending and I wince

I tried opening up someone..I mean something

When opening up the container it cut my thumb pretty painfully 

Then last night I tried to walk out and fell on the concrete using my hands to fall, this scraped my palm pretty bad as you can see

Is my body opening the wounds I try and ignore physically? Maybe I should address these things before my body splits open because that’s what it feels like will happen

Sometimes when im at work i imagine someone running into the cafe and saying “zoe it’s you!! can I love you for forever” and then I’ll say yes please 

I’ve imagined big acts of love happening to me since I was little

who taught you to love?

got sushi after work bc it’s a beautiful day and I deserve it

ordered the waitresses favorite sashimi, yellow tail, also my fav so I was so happy when she said to pick that one

 

going home…

 

 earl gray carrot muffin mmmm

I LOVE ANIMAL CROSSING!!!!