zoe

im getting really sad about who i am for some reason, i think im great and kind but is all i am is kind?

no but sometimes im scared that is all there is about me

i mean i like reading, movies, connecting, listening, experiencing, clothes, art and all that jazz, i do like jazz too. 

but i wish i felt dedicated to something so i could meet more people dedicated to that and connect that way, find a community. 

i feel like its bc i was one of those kids who were unable to have hobbies because all i did was survive, 

now all i know is surviving really and have difficulty finding hobbies without my friends or someone to share it with.

id like to get better at experiencing good things this year so much that i forget i felt this way.